The past 12–15 months have been a big transition for me. I became a misogynist, racist, anti-Semite and Nazi. Fear overcame me. I am now an Islamaphobe, homophone and xenophobe. The biggest change, I suppose, is the violence and hate. They fuel me and I celebrate human humiliation in their name.
The changes were unexpected rooted in my support of anyone but Hilary Clinton — I joked during the election, I would have voted for Donald Trump’s hair over her. For better or worse, because I voted for Trump, I now symbolize and espouse all the worst characteristics and traits of humankind.
I didn’t vote for Trump because he is virtuous, moral or brilliant. I voted for Trump because my other choice was Hilary Clinton. I voted for Trump because he was willing to tell the Emperors (Congress and the Media) they have no clothes. We need a strong cup of reality in the US. We have too many able-bodied people living on the dole. We are deep in debt and making it worse every day. We have so many regulations and laws that everyone is a criminal. Our police departments are solidifying themselves as a standing domestic army focused on pre-crime control and monitoring of citizens rather than post-crime investigation and arrest of criminals. Our government is out of control. Trump said this bothered him too. I wish I was different, but I am what I am (and what people call me).
I am a misogynist. The list of women I would have voted for instead of Donald Trump or Hilary Clinton is long (probably in the thousands) but because I could not vote for that single woman — I am anti-woman. I do hate that woman. Harsh words for a person I have never met, but I hate a lot of historic figures I have never met. She is a proven liar. When I objectively analyze her career, I see someone with a lot of titles and few accomplishments. I simply find her to not be a good person.
I am a racist. Recently, family members saw a keychain of mine with the Gadsden rattlesnake and “Live Free or Die”. Over a beer they told me that they see that as a symbol of racism. Evidently, a historic symbol of the American Revolution is one more dog whistle and virtue signal I was unaware of. Now my liberal family members, who I love and respect and I know used to love and respect me, consider me a closet racist for honoring those original and, at the time, unique American notions of individual liberty, private property and limited government. One friend of my wife, who is in my top five list of most respected people I know, now finds me repulsive because I wouldn’t vote for Hillary and did not support Obama. She is black. While I can never understand the passions and pride black people must feel at Obama’s presidency, I can understand his political appeal and his undeniable skills at influence and delivering emotion-inspiring rhetoric. However, I don’t understand black people’s unwavering support for him when his record is so bad; not just for the US in general, but for black people specifically. I am persuadable and willing to be wrong if someone will just tell me what significant accomplishment he had that helped black people and especially poor black people?
I am a jingoistic, neo-Nazi xenophobe For as long as I have had opinions on such matters, my opinion has been the United States should not be the peacekeepers of the world, at least not until we can influence countries by our example not by their submission. Operating our own immense Ponzi scheme of massive deficits and exploding debt is reducing our ability to influence world affairs. Our only remaining tool, besides force, seems to be to distribute borrowed funds to nations of the world like a drunkard buying everyone drinks on his friend’s tab — and most of the people we give money to, don’t like us. Putting America first, getting our affairs in order before trying to help others is isolationist and too nationalistic, too hateful of people not luck enough to be born in the US. When I sincerely ask, “what are the benefits and unique privileges of being a US Citizen?” I am really sending a dog whistle to White Supremacist friends and fascist sympathizers: “Let’s grab our guns and go get everyone that doesn’t look like us”.
I am an anti-government radical. [This one may actually be true] The saying goes that the greatest trick the Devil ever came up with was convincing us he was not real. I think that principle can be applied to government. The greatest trick the government ever contrived was convincing us it was essential. Questioning the need for a Federal government bureaucracy of 2.79 Million employees and massive welfare programs, puts me squarely in the camp with the small number of militia “preppers” plotting the collapse of the US Government. There is no middle ground between questioning the size and scope of the federal bureaucracy and advocating a violent secession.
I am an uneducated, unintelligent low information voter. On Brietbart News Daily the other day I heard a truck driver perfectly describe Bastiate’s broken window fallacy,while elsewhere I see PHD candidates studying the importance of allowing children to select their own gender. Which one is better educated and better informed?
I don’t believe most networks are telling the truth (including Fox News). Once I sunk down the rabbit hole of critical thinking and questioning the “news”, the hate consumed me. I no longer dislike Rachel Maddow because she is smug, glib and condescending, I dislike her because she is married to a woman. I no longer dislike Hillary Clinton because she has lied so many times and caused people to die, I hate her because she is a woman. I no longer find Barack Obama to be dishonest because that is what I have witnessed with my own eyes, I don’t trust him because he is black. (Although I trust him half the time because he is half white.) I no longer question gay marriage because I question the State’s role in all marriages, I question gay marriage because I hate gays.
It has been a lot of change to digest for one year, but I am working through it.
I long for the pre-Trump days when my family loved and respected me, when they agreed that reading Nobel winners like FA Hayek, and studying prolific and widely lauded authors like Thomas Sowell, Murray Rothbard and Ayn Rand were good things. When we all knew that lying was wrong. When we understood there is a difference between being offended and having the right not to be offended. When people had principles and philosophies that guided their life and if a person had a different philiosophy, they were not worthy of hate and ridicule, but sought after for discussion and debate. Most of all, I hope soon to return to the days whey I didn’t hate everyone — especially the ones who I love so much.